Everyday Life as Creator

Today, I feel the embrace of my eternal beingness in a deep breath — but it wasn’t always that way. The truth is, I’ve been through hell — and I made it back. As a child, I was shy, lonely, and often hiding from the world. In my teens, I spiraled into rebellion, battled eating disorders, used drugs, and spent my 15th birthday in a psychiatric ward. I carried deep emotional pain and self-judgment into adulthood, trying to outrun my feelings through achievement, success, and perfection. On the outside, I built the picture-perfect life — corporate career, marriage, kids — but inside, I was anxious, exhausted, and completely disconnected from who I really was. By my mid-thirties, my body and mind were breaking down. I was on multiple medications — antidepressants, anti-anxiety, ADHD, bipolar meds, plus painkillers and treatments for autoimmune issues. I stayed busy, numbed out, and did everything I could to avoid the truth staring me in the face: no pill, no job title, no amount of striving was ever going to erase the pain inside my mind and body. What finally changed everything was not a doctor, a diagnosis, or a checklist. It was the deep, relentless call from within to stop running — and to finally meet myself. To face the emotions, fears, and beliefs I had spent my entire life avoiding. In 2012, I made the hardest and most important decision of my life. I pulled the plug on the medications, stepped away from the outside noise, and turned inward. I surrendered. Not to defeat — but to life itself. To the wisdom of my own body. To the truth of my own essence. And through that surrender, something extraordinary happened. In 2015, after long periods of silence, stillness, and witnessing — choosing not to engage the mind but simply be with what is — I experienced a massive kundalini awakening and near-death experience (NDE). It was a spontaneous spiritual rebirth that shattered the false identities I had clung to my entire life. In that moment, I directly experienced my true nature: not broken, not damaged, but whole, eternal, and one with the Source of all life. That experience became the doorway to everything that followed. My healing wasn’t quick. It wasn’t pretty. But it was real. I devoted myself fully to this inner journey — through breakdowns, breakthroughs, and the slow, steady process of embodiment. Along the way, I became a certified yoga instructor (RYT200), studied energy work, meditation, breathwork, and spiritual embodiment practices. But my greatest “credential” is lived experience. I’ve spent the last decade medication-free, healthy, and fully alive — not because I found the right system or prescription, but because I completely rewrote my relationship with everything: with myself, my body, my health, my mind, money, relationships, and the world around me. I had to learn how to live from an entirely new state of consciousness — one rooted in presence, trust, and direct connection to my Source Self. I’m not here to hand you a five-step plan or tell you what to believe. I’m here because I’ve walked through the fire. I know what it feels like to be lost, broken, and unsure if anything can ever change. And I also know — without a doubt — that transformation is possible. If you’re ready to stop running, to remember who you truly are, and to live from the clarity, peace, and power of your own Self… I’m here to remind you: You can do this.