Everyday Life as Creator

Today, I feel the embrace of my eternal beingness in a single deep breath, but it wasn’t always that way. I’ve moved through some very dark and challenging chapters, only to discover that what’s real and lasting is my eternal presence. Those difficult states were simply patterns of mind, belief, and embodied energies that can be unwound and dissolved. As a child, I was shy, lonely, and often hiding from the world. In my teens, I spiraled into rebellion, battled eating disorders, used drugs, and spent my 15th birthday in a psychiatric ward. I carried deep emotional pain and self-judgment into adulthood, trying to outrun my feelings through achievement, success, and perfection. On the outside, I built the picture-perfect life, corporate career, marriage, kids, but inside, I was anxious, exhausted, and completely disconnected from who I really was. By my mid-thirties, my body and mind were breaking down. I was on multiple medications, antidepressants, anti-anxiety, ADHD, bipolar meds, plus painkillers and treatments for autoimmune issues. I stayed busy, numbed out, and did everything I could to avoid the truth staring me in the face. No pill, no job title, no amount of striving was ever going to erase the pain inside my mind and body. What finally changed everything was not a doctor, a diagnosis, or a checklist. It was the deep, relentless call from within to stop running and finally meet myself. To face the emotions, fears, and beliefs I had spent my entire life avoiding. In 2012, I made the hardest and most important decision of my life. I pulled the plug on the medications, stepped away from the outside noise, and turned inward. I surrendered. Not to defeat, but to life itself. To the wisdom of my own body. To the truth of my own essence. And through that surrender, something extraordinary happened. In 2015, after long periods of silence, stillness, and witnessing, choosing not to engage the mind but simply be with what is, I experienced a massive kundalini awakening and near-death experience (NDE). It was a spontaneous spiritual rebirth that shattered the false identities I had clung to for so long. In that moment, I directly experienced my true nature, not broken or damaged, but whole, eternal, and one with the Source of all life. That experience changed the entire trajectory of my life. My healing wasn’t quick or polished. It unfolded slowly, messily, and honestly. I stayed with myself through the unraveling, the breakthroughs, the confusion, the clarity, all of it. Over time, I began to truly inhabit my body again. I studied yoga, energy work, meditation, breathwork, and embodiment practices, but more than anything else, I learned through lived experience. I’ve spent the last decade medication-free, healthy, and fully alive, not because I found the perfect method, but because I rebuilt my relationship with everything, my body, my health, my mind, money, relationships, and the world around me. I had to learn how to live from an entirely new state of consciousness, one rooted in presence, trust, and a direct connection to my Source Self. I’m not here to hand you a formula or tell you what to believe. I know what it feels like to be lost, overwhelmed, and unsure if anything will ever change. And I also know, without a doubt, that transformation is possible. If you're ready to embody more clarity, peace, and your own unique expression, I’m here to remind you: You can do this.